My life as a Child of God

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hmm..I'll just post it here... enjoy reading my life!

My parents are both Christians. My father is a believer, a church goer, loves God, prays...he does the average. My mother is the devoted one. I consider our family as the Charismatic Catholics. My mother is active with Charismatic Prayer Meetings.

When I was small, as early as 3 years old or even younger, my mom would bring me to their prayer meetings. I grew up knowing and witnessing the spiritual gifts. I know it is not new to most of you but I think it is for Catholics because the average church goer I know aren't even familiar with the gift of speaking in tongues.

So there..I joined but growing up it seems like it is already getting boring. I remember making excuse of not going to church even to prayer meetings but I always fear of disappointing my mom so I end up going anyway. When I am there, I don't really pay attention. I was having fun and was really curious about the gifts.

When I turned around maybe 7 years old...I could no longer enter the church. Why? Because I will faint once the Priest reads the gospel. I don't why and I am not even aware that it was always during the reading of the gospel. My mom just told me about it when we tried to recall my life with a priest. anyway...so that's it..back then my mom would scold me for the "drama". But we noticed it for several times and I ended up disturbing the mass. We thought because the church is just crowded and I couldn't stand the crowd. (In the Philippines, the Church are always full of people..you can see people standing outside the church just listening to the priest. So when you go to church, you must come about maybe 15-20 minutes earlier than the mass that you would like to attend). So because of that..I would no longer go to church.

7-12 years old...I can't go to Church. any church..and I got lazy going anyway but I prayed and just told God that I want Him to help me. I want Him to do something to help me devote myself to Him. I want Him to do something that can make my faith strong and make my self ready to be His servant.

12 years old..I started going to High School...
I will no longer faint...but my headaches so much..and my head ache not only in the Church..but everyday..
I lived a life with headache. by the age of 14 years old it had gotten worst. I was brought to the hospital and stayed there for a month. The doctors gave me the strongest pain killer for my age, it won't work. They gave me placebo (I learned about it when I took up Nursing), it won't work. They gave me an overdosed amount of medicine...my body got numb so they stopped it. They decided to give me tranquilizer to help me sleep. Then my headache will wake me up after how many hours. My results were normal. The doctors couldn't explain it..so I was diagnosed with severe migraine.

I graduated HS at the age of 16 years old..then I went to college...
My headache was gone during the 2nd semester but people started to notice one day that my neck had a mass. Even strangers will ask me if I have a goiter. (Strangers? yes..Idk why!) It all happened in a day. When my friend asked me..I didn't believe her but when strangers ( schoolmates) asked me..there I sarted to panic. I went to the hospital and had my checked up. The doctors said it was nothing but yes there is a mass. They asked me if I would like to have further test. I said I'll come back once I had already informed my parents.

My parents said that I should come here in NY so I will be checked here. So after the 2nd semester..I left and spent my summer vacation here in NY. I was examined. Then the doctor said that the mass is not clear..they got two results...it is a mix of goiter and cancerous cells. So I had thyroidectomy. The doctor said they cannot explain it. So they had placed.."mass" in my results. They said they will have further study once the other said will grow. We said ok. I went back to the Philippines.

when I turned 18...God just answered my prayer..He did something on my "party". It was supposed to be a surprise debut party for me but it turned out to be a prayer meeting. Things happened that tested my faith, my family, my boyfriend, my friends (well out of all that they invited..it was odd that only 3 came... one from HS, one from College, and just one of my best friends...something happened to my friends that cause them not to go) and my prayer meeting group.

Starting that day...God had revealed so many things to me..and I even end up consulting Psychologists just because I feel like I am already crazy...I had talked to alot of Priest to guide me and help me understand everything...

why I am here in NY?
A lot of times I've been told to go to NY but I don't want to because I only have 1 year to finish college. So I prayed and told God that if being here is His plan, I want Him to do something that will cause me to say yes.

When my mom told me that she is pregnant...I said ok..That's what I am waiting for. They need somebody here to help them with my new sibling.

But..after all my papers are done..got all my papers from the College..and ready to leave..

My mother called and told me that they went to the doctor to have her 2nd ultrasound..the doctors said "there's no baby!" The baby was gone. My mom didn't have bleeding. No signs of miscarriage. No signs of being pregnant.

so here I am...

Idled for 5 months..left everything and followed His plan.
yes...I questioned Him why...and He gave me an answer..It's because He wanted more from my time.
Nursing is a vocation for me. I want to follow the Healing Ministry of Jesus. I was the student nurse in the Philippines who would care for patients and dedicating what I was doing for God.
but...He said before I can start serving His people, I should serve Him first.

When I am online it's more of talking to people and praying with people who visited my blog (i have a pingbox there).



It's kinda long..there are lots of things that happened in between...and yes..more of the spiritual side..
My testimony is really different and sometimes hard to believe.
That's why if you will ask me if God is true...I would not answer you with a Bible. I have experiences with Him.