As I Walked

[iamhere4you]

this was under another username a while back.
I had to change my username for security reasons, believe it or not...

As I Walked

"Pierced by insults,
Stabbed by the agonizing blade of rejection,
How long will I stand?
My spirit cracked,
Still healing from past and present pain.
Suffering…
Will I be able to continue?
My anger lurks just around the corner…
Just waiting to devour me,
Will I be able to hold myself together?
Insecure I am,
Waiting for someone to protect me…
To protect me from the infinite rage that dwells within me,
Will anyone come to my side?
Darkness eating at my spirit,
How much longer do I have?
Almost drained of all my will,
Can I still go on?
Still missing something in my life,
How long must I search?
Must I fall to the world,
Or is what I search for right in front of me…
Living exactly as I?
Is it living, or does it even exist?
How long must I carry on like this?"
That is what I thought as I walked down the path of sorrow...
Waiting for my life to end.
Through all of my life,
I had been rejected;
Tossed into the cold world,
I was left to die:
Never was I loved;
Never did have a friend.
Although I didn’t know what love was,
I searched relentlessly for it.
Days, months, and even years passed, as I searched high and low.
But then came the day I gave up all hope.
Trembling, I gave in.
There I collapsed,
Hitting the hard ground beneath my swollen feet.
Profusely, I began to bleed.
Then I thought to myself,
"Finally, my life will end…
No one will care…"
But there, you approached me.
You looked down at my broken body,
And picked me up with your loving arms…
With a warm, heart filled smile.
Nursing me back to health,
You clothed me,
Healing my open, infected wounds.
You showed me your love,
And there, you gave me the will to carry on.
So now, even after death,
I shall love you forever,
No matter what may stand in our way.

[xXThreat of ForceXx]

wow!!! That is awesome!! And did you say some of your work has been published?! That's amazing!!!! God has really blessed you!

Heheh, I know I shouldn't be jealous but wow...

[iamhere4you]

Thank you.
Yes, this poem was published last year. It is in a collection of works, but, this version is not in there: it is the unedited version that is found in the book.
So, it says, "Stabbed by agonizing blade of rejection" when in fact there should be "the" in there =/